jenny rayray

jennx30 @ 2009-12-18T19:02:00

2009-12-19T01:02:04Z

hey livejournal im really stoned but my dad is on this gokart conference call really cool i know im going to the colony tonight and im actually excited which is strange but not really i guess because now whitneys lives there again which rules and my mamas there too and im gonna go xmas shopping and wrap presents and bake cookies and go to pats pub and eat some good mexi food and have fun wheeee and i got some weed thanks joey joeyjoeyjoey ill miss my joey i sometimes look at his ex girlfriends myspace page just to remind me to never be a dumb twat like she is and i read this blog about their relationship and it was retarded and dramatic and made me want to punch her even harder and i need a beer real bad right now and im glad that i finally found joey again because im pretty sure i fell in love with him the first time i met him and it took me 5 years to find him but when i did i caught him and now hes mine and it feels so nice to have someone to love and even if he doesnt talk much about the way he loves me he shows me in other ways like when he kisses my forehead in the morning or takes my glasses off when i fall asleep in them and brings me home cupcakes i want to do nice things for him and im almost off probation omg in january it seems like its been soo much longer than a year and a half but soon it will all be behind me and i wont have to pay stupid amounts of money to some bastards who dont care and i will never make the same mistake again and then im gonna work on getting a car back and going to massage therapy school and be happy and content although i am happy and content right now things could be better in certain areas of my life and im going to work hard to make them better were only getting older and i have someone who i want to grow old with im in love im happy life is great

jennx30 @ 2009-10-06T19:42:00

2009-10-07T00:46:28Z

i had this dream last night that was much like a video game because my dreams are usually like video games im either playing it or its my life. so me maddy n tyler are all floating down water rapids an jumpin off waterfalls into pools and it went on and it was crazy. then we went back and it had dried up but we walked down it anyway and i found this skirt and put it on and maddy wanted it but i said 'its a size 10 wont fit you anyway' then we came to the waterfall and it still had a pool at the bottom and there was this old man about to do grafitti but when he saw us he hesistated.

i wish i had a ride homeeeeeeee.

jennx30 @ 2009-08-31T17:47:00

2009-08-31T22:47:03Z

gahhhhh i dunno.
sometimes i just dont know.
whatever.

FIRE!

2009-08-21T23:19:58Z

dang last night a pillow caught on fire in our room me and joey had no idea because we were ..busy.. and then all of a sudden the smoke detector starts goin off and were like what the fuck?! so we jump outta bed and turn on the lights and our room is FILLED with smoke and were like WHATS BURNING!??!! and so were tearing apart our room looking for whatevers burning and we discover a floor pillow thats smoldering...HUH? we have no clue how it caught on fire or what the fuck happened. i was smoking a cigarette in bed but the pillow that caught fire was all the way across the room.... it was strange and unnerving and quite tiring. by the time it was all over i was just standing in the room about to fall over joey had ripped the bed apart so we had to put it back together and everything was out of place and it was just fucking crazy. ive never woken up or been utterly disturbed by a fire alarm. its fucking scarey! not to mention our house is as my father put it a 'tinderbox' goddamn if we hadnt had that alarm shit coulda been REALLY bad. moral of the story: GET SMOKE DETECTORS! gahlee.
i had a very funny dream this morning. i was in my room which was shaped like my grandmothers old apartment and it didnt look anything like my room and there was a bunk bed and junk everywhere and some random people hanging out and joey comes in the door early from work and tells me he found some of my stuff and starts teasing me about a storybook i made. it was called 'the strange kiss' and i guess it was about him? and also i had all this shit gushing about how much i loved him. and also all these weird little knick knacks that were actually fucking really cool and i wish i DID have them. the dream was really realistic in a sense and joey was being hilarious in the dream then i guess he was still at work because he told some girl to make the indian catfish cuz her mom wasnt gonna cook it later. i guess i woke up after that.
im hungry. this weekend is gonna be fun! i wish i hadnt been such an alcoholic all week because now its the weekend and im tired as fuck. seriously i was bad this week wtf? oh well i had fun...hahaha parties tonight and tomorrow and sunday is a show at phoenix project! AH IM STARVIN NEED FOOD LATER DOODZ

cuz im already gone

2009-08-21T00:24:52Z

hey livejournal whats up buttface?
everything is fine.
im tired and smelly.
i wish i would work more than i do.
im an asshole in this respect.
joey built a kitty city for the kitties.
im in charge of making the zine for the phoenix project. so cool!
hung out with my sister last night and it was hilarious and AWESOME. a man in a pimp hat with a feather hit on me 'hello gorgeous'
a hooker climbed over the fence to get into the bar
me and maddy ate shit because we were wearing heels and fuck we were wasted? hahaha drunk girls falling at bars wooo everyone laughed. its ok i also ran into the front door and everyone cheered. sheez....
ive drank 2 sodas today. ew?
i feel fat as shit
joey ate my freebirds
tyler ate maddys freebirds
fucking fat stoned drunk boyfriends
oh well i love mine very much
and tacos goddamn
i should ride my bike more so i dont feel as fat but well fuck its hottt

i hope it rains tonight
that would be nice
im going home

bye!
love
jray

denim skirts studded belts an fucked up eyeliner. CUTE!

2009-08-03T19:45:33Z

dang. i guess my last entry was kinda weird? i was just pissed off
didnt get wasted all weekend! although i did still drink. shit, niggas gon drink jus sayin. i dont feel like im that big of an alcoholic. i mean i know i like the sauce i bit too much an thats why ive cut back. but shoot if i don love a nice ice cold delicious beer. who gonna argue with that? its just that fucking ENERGY beer. that shit is the damn devil.
so i finished reading one flew over the cuckoos nest and i have moved on to ....JURASSIC PARK!!! an holllllllly shit its fuckin awesome already. im 90pgs in so far n i just started it last night. hooo wee!
joey got soul calibur for ps3. its pretty tiiiiight. tyler talked shit on it at first because 1. hes a douchelarouche and 2. he didnt know the controls. psh. what a baby. his birthday is on friday...hmmm.....
last night was my friend theresas bday party luau an it was AWESOME!!!! im super glad we went there were decorations and a jelloshotcake?! HOLY SHIT! we kept playin i never, an damn if joey didnt get us all with this one, I NEVER DYED MY HAIR. i was like dammmnnnn fools never owned a pair of chucks neither. the fuck? haha doesnt surprise me i cant see him wearin em anyway. everyone was dancin n me an joey sat on the couch for awhile laughin at all the drunkys. hehehehehehahahaha oh man the best part was when we saw alec stumblin in an joey goes i wonder how drunk alec is? then BLAM he just sacks out on the couch ahhahaha then everyone was wakin him up an he put on a straw hat an danced around hahaha hahahaha oh man good stuff.
then joey tells me some girl just hit on him askin if he had a girlfriend n of course he says yeh shes right over there. and of course i knew exactly what dumb twat it was cuz i saw her introduce herself to him. i got dat eagle eye i don miss a beat esp when it comes to stupid twatty ugly busted ass hoez in denim skirts tryin to get up on my man. so he tells me. n i stand there for a minute, fumin a lil. then go inside. n i see her so i walk up to her n i say so you like my boyfriend huh? n shes like what? and im like yeah you know joey? MY boyfriend? then shes like ohh nooo i uhhh an starts sputterin n im like yea whatever. then she tries to touch my arm n im like dont fuckin touch me. an i walk outside with a smirk n joey goes you started shit didnt you? n i was like nah i just told her whats up then girl comes out n is all tryin to talk to me n im like shooin her away like bitch get out my face and shes like no no i was just introducing myself n said her name was anna n i go OH hi. anna. fuckin bitch. since when did introducing yourself consist of 'hi do you have a girlfriend? oh you do? well i woulda totally been all about you' im tellin ya bitch was busted

ANNNNNNNYWAY- i like to scare dumb bitches. its not like id go and punch her or something but a bitch needs to know. also im extremely jealous/and/or/ possessive. mehhhh not my best qualities but at least ya know im a loyal motherfucker.

bleh work. bleh.
im itchy.

grrrrrrrr

2009-07-31T21:23:49Z

PENT UP ANGER. neeeeeds to be released.
i guess its not even that pent up, its just anger. pure anger.
for one, i do not like when people talk shit on my friends, family, or my man.
UGH. i also do not understand why people think its OKAY to repeat potentially harmful words to a person that was said about them. why? whats the point? everyone says stuff people talk shit big deal, but to repeat the words? whats the use in that? its just plain cruel.
it makes me sad as well as angry.
like, i wanna smash someones face in.
for example, today on the bus, as i was ridin to work MINDIN MY OWN BIZ readin a book, this fuckin smelly ass hobobum decided to sit next to me. then started sayin shit to me. i ignored him like i didnt know he was even there although from his stench who WOULDNT know he was around...anyway i kept thinking in my head i wish this fucker would do something that could warrant me just fucking PUNCHING him right in the face. seriously. im in no way a physically violent person. i talk alot of talk sayin imma kick so-in-so's ass but i never actually use physical violence. i dont agree it with it. but goddamn if i dont wanna just get kick the SHIT out of someone. bah
glad its friday.
i got extremely wasted on wednesday night. resulted in a 5am fight with joey. NOT COOL. we don fucking fight unless were both really drunk. of course we talked it out but it made me realize that my drinking was interfering with my relationship and fuckin a id choose joey over booze anyday. so im takin some time off. really gonna try. i mean i know im an alcoholic. yeah yeah. most of us are. but well i gotta do somethin about it.
it was strange because as i was discussing my thoughts n feelings with emi over txt, i arrived at the bus stop. this haggard ole lady was sittin there n she asked me what my tattoo was about (the one on my leg) i told her its the harmful effects of alcohol on your body. she said oh, you an alcoholic? n i just said yep. she said thats funny im drinkin right now. i said oh ok cool. then shes like yeah...drinkin dont really even do anything to me anymore i just drink yknow. an i thought fuck man. fuck. i dont wanna end up like that.
so thats that.
life is fuckin well, its life.

you dont know how lucky you are

2009-07-24T21:46:00Z

BAAAAACK IN THE USSSSSRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
damn that song
holy shit i ate so much at lunch today i felt like a fatty fat blimpo ughhh then i got all tired like an old lady PSHAW.
its frooiddaaaay. thank GOD. im turning my phone back on today yeeeeeee yeyeyeyeee so i can TEE-EX-TEE again..joey is goin skating tonight. i dont really have any plans so much. tomorrow is the first show at the phoenix project~~~!!!! im headin up the food department n im real excited. plus all the people and fun that will be had! wooo! too bad joe has to work til like 9...:( oh well mebbe he'll come up there anyway.
my stomach muscles hurt from certain exercises...eheheeeee
whew
uhhhhhhhhh man i had a weird dream last night that i met miley cyrus? and she had this home in the mountains and we decided to go on a hike...so were on this hike and we peer over this big rock and see this huge field with all sorts of 'illegal' things going on an what not n were like we shouldnt be here! some other shit happened i dont remember but the next part i remember was i was at a CVS or somethin in new york city and someone was throwing boxes into the street and they were turning into HUGE OBJECTS like a huge trex? but it was all cartoony and everyone knew they were fake but were still scared? then somethin else was goin on n i was runnin down this street catchin tags? OH I DUNNO..

what else...didnt really do anything last night. joey bought a new video game, mortal kombat vs. DC. it was fucking RAAAAAAAAAD. i havent tried it out yet but i will sooon.....
then we went to sleepytime.

oh and goose was in a fight or something! because i found him the other day outside in a little slump looking really saddddd an i picked him up n he had all these cuts! and his leg is hurt ;( he got a stanky leg again. i think he will be ok tho. hopefully thats my lil kitty<3

oh and im reading one flew over the cuckoos nest. its not bad, not bad at all.
i still wanna read jurassic park tho...AND IM GONNA.

jennx30 @ 2009-07-22T17:38:00

2009-07-22T22:54:22Z

ahhh man do i feel better TODAY. shooooooooooot.
had a good night last night as well. went to the phoenix project meetup. super excited about saturday!! hungout with emi then hungout with audra had some girl talk it was good to actually hang out and talk with her. especially without stupid brian lingering around being a fucking loser douchebag. she says she dumped him for good this time. i sincerely hope it lasts.
my fucking phone just got turned off. THATS COOL. ugh.
woops totally forgot about this entryy damn you myspace!
not much to do at work today
ah well.
wish i hadnt given that dood my bus pass damnit

why the HELL did i drink vodka?

2009-07-21T21:37:29Z

seriously. i dont drink liquor for a reason. ugh oof ughhhh.
not only do i feel like doodoo today but i flipped last night. with reason perhaps not GOOD reason but i definitely had a reason.
god i hate stupid fucking amazonian BITCHES. they can fucking suck it. hardddd.
yesterday kinda sucked in general. joey was skatin n his wallet fell outta his pocket n he lost like 200$ that sucked.
my mom came over n was a bitch about shit because she was angry for having to be around HER mother for several days. that sucked.
wade threw up all over the floor. REAL COOL.
joey acted like a dick to me and thats when i flipped.
what good happened yesterday?
i watched thumbsucker. it was ok.
i sewed up joeys pants and he said i was amazing. that was nice.
i smoked a joint? whatevs.
i saw some of my girlfriends and they are down for the girls of the bike haus calendarrr hehehe that rulz.
joe came home n we made up. thats a relief
godfuck. having a relationship is such hardwork. ive said it before but damn damndamndamn.

i gotta get back to work and try not to barf.
FTW

hip hip hurray

2009-07-17T22:22:37Z

herrooooo
my pms is FINALLY GONE.
and...i just bought some w333d!!!!11 thats not dro!!! HURRAY!
n it was beautiful outside early this afternoon. however i felt like i might have stepped into an alternate dimension because the ac had gone out last night sometime n when i walked outside it was cooler out there than in the house. twas perplexing....
however i have no real complaints right now. life is good.
its the weekend dont really have any plans and dont reaaaaaaaaaallllly care :)
think im gonna go see akkolyte on saturday
need to clean the house
gotta sort things out with ben who seems upset but i think there is just confusion
gotta pay some billz n shit
then go back to work on monday
also i need to get some community service done ! eeeeek!
an i have probation next thursday i aint worried about dat tho
im smelly i need a shower
n i wanna go home n hug my baby n smoke lots of sweet sweet weedskies
YAY!!!!!!!

fatty fat fat faaaaaaaaaaaat

2009-07-09T22:37:31Z

fuckkk. i have this infernal crick in my neck on the left side that WILL NOT GO AWAY NO MATTER WHAAAAAAAT. its really annoying and i hate it. real bad. joey pissed me off on tuesday. i yelled at him. but i cant ever stay mad at him because he has no malicious intentions. damn him. fool needs a phone! its hot. and i feel like ive been pmsing for like 3 YEARS before i FINALLY started my fat stupid period. in which i was paranoid as fuck that i was preggers. convinced even. but alas nay. HOORAY!!!!! i was really freakin. but its allll good. n im for real gettin on bc when this shit is done flowing out of my vag hole.
been swimmin a little. emi pointed out that this summer is alot more calm then she expected it to be. i agreed. i said its not a summer where you forget all your responsibilities. also not doing drugs tends to keep things a little less chaotic. jus sayin. but fuck drugs anyway.
except weed. but weed aint a drug. SORRY. and goddamn if i could only find some sweet sweet shwag...my life..would be complete. sux when all you can get is dro. i mean dro's cool n all but dammnnnn i like smokin joints. sheeit.
im at work n my dad is supposed to be sharpenin my bit but i dunno if he has an its so deliciously cool in the office. but the cold air is makin my nose hurt for some reason.

oh shit! I FINISHED DUNE! the WHOLE SERIES. well the original series, 1-6. dang. DANG. so good. if there were 20 books i would read them all. i been readin dune since xmas2008. shoooot. now im gonna read the beach after frank is done with it. an were gonna discuss it then watch the movie. then im gonna read jurassic park with celeste n do the same. im gonna read the lost world as well cuz my friend cate said it was pretty good too.
god my neck...
FUCK MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
mehhhhhhh
meh.

ohhh maaaaan

2009-06-24T23:06:03Z

heat! CEASEEEEEEEEEE yeah right. sup texas summer? danngg....
got a show comin up on friday im super excited about it because IIII booked it. ALL ME! haha!!!!! i win!!! an its just gonna be really fun because my friend jeff from houston who is in muhammed ali is cominggggg and he rulzzzz and he my husband but don tell my boyfriend. EEEp hehehehe. speaking of my boyfriend. GAH. wait hang on before i vent.
so there was this dood wade staying at the house. total moochin muthafucka. like 34yr old loser. i dont know why our house attracts these degenerates but WHATEVERR. anyway- he never even really asked to stay he just kinda followed cody poole over when they got kicked out of the previous place they were stayin. its our fault for not bein like uh who are you? anyway- after awhile for SOME reason his dogs got dropped off at the house. we arranged to take them to the phoenix project to stay there but well that never happened...surprise. so one of his dogs started making these awful coughing noises an we all kinda thought maybe something was just stuck in his throat? anyway it persisted and last weekend me joe an frank went to atx to hang out n shit. well when we got back saturday night i noticed that neko was now making coughing noises. so i was like OH HEELLLLLL NAW NIGGA. so i wake up on sunday and neko is still coughing and its getting worse so im like what the fuck. so i call my dad to say happy fathers day of course and tell him whats going on and he tells me its heartworms and im like wtf? so then i call my mom and she tells me no, its kennel cough. and so im like no way. fucking NO WAY. this loser fucking dood got my fucking dog sick. and that was the last straw. so i marched downstairs and i was originally planning on getting my bottle of water i left in the fridge but it had been drank. so then i was even MORE angry so i went into the living room where frank and wade were sleeping on couches and i started yelling WHO DRANK MY FUCKING WATER? and frank told me he got sick and threw up alot so he drank it. i was like ok. whatever. so im in the kitchen making myself some ice water and dood wade walks in and starts with some bullshit line of his. this is how it went:
wade: uhhh sooooo i was like making out with this hott chick last night...
me: you and your dogs need to leave TODAY.
w: wha uh today?
me: yes. today.
w: it cant be tomorrow?
me: NO. i gave you a week. you need to leave today.
w:*puts his arm around me* whats wrong?
me:*pulls away* nothing.
then i walked upstairs. i came back down after awhile to go run some errands and that dickhole was back asleep on the couch. i wanted to be like usually when someone tells you to LEAVE you dont just go back to sleep you fuck. but i just went on my biz.
well when i got back home he was sitting on the porch and i said 'your dog has kennel cough. thats why he's been coughing. he also gave it to neko' wade just goes whaat?? and i walked inside.
then later i was doing dishes he walked past me and said sorry jenny. i just turned my back on him. then he was gone. motherFUCKER. god. but hey good riddance.
so anyway- joey's mom is a vet nurse lady thingy so i called her to see what i could do and she told me to come up to her work and get some antibiotics for neko. so since i had maddy's car i drove my fat ass all the way to fucking ROWLETT ughhhhhhhhhughhh it sucked. and i get there and the girl at the desk is like hi! an im like im here for dorothy. an shes like ohhh ok then calls her to come out. then she goes 'daughter-in-law?' and im like ohh god uhh nooo just girlfriend geeeze..........haha shit. so i go back to her office and im lookin around and FUCKING WHAT DO I SEE? A GODDAMN OH GOD. FUCKING A FUCKING CHRISTMAS CARD OF JOEY AN HIS EX GIRLFRIEND AND THEIR ANIMALS. what the FUCKKKKKKKK?????????? WHO MAKES XMAS CARDS?!?!?! GOOD GOD. i couldnt stop looking at it. ughhh it made me so jealous and mad. i mean i know thats pointless but i couldnt help it. what the fuck? fucking lame ass bitch. so i was kinda irked about that.
then i went home la-de-dah then i went to the bitch wich with maddy and it was all my girlfriends and we were all hangin and laughin and we all made AMAZING SANDWICHES OMG. OH MY GODDD. so then i realized i needed to get that shit off my chest an im like ok since im with my girls i gotta say this and i told them about the xmas card. wtf. we were all laughing an shit. an i was like i wanna say somethin but i dont wanna be like that dumb bitch girlfriend.
so me an maddy leave cuz we tired n shit. and we get back to the house and joeys on the porch and chris is in town and we were all talking and chris is like has joey asked you to beat up his exgf for stealing all his shit yet? an i was like blahblah but i did see a really cute xmas card of you guys on your moms desk. and joeys like OH GOD. STILL???? an i was like yea. an then i was like please PLEASE tell me this wasnt joeys idea. and he was like fuck no. so i felt better and found a way to make fun of him and get it off my chest at the same time.
so i hung for awhile but i was real tired so i went upstairs to go to sleep an smoked some hash an was watching jurassic park an totally passed out.
until i was woken up by joey busting in the door and fuckin i dont even KNOW what time going dont ask me where ive been and laughing and im like huhhhh what.....where were you? anyway he continues to babble on to me and hes drunk and angry about his ex and all this shit and how he wants his belongings back and im trying to tell him to calm down and forget that shit cuz its just material stuff and forget the past and blahblha and hes just being persistant and still angry and just pissing me off in general and i guess she really fucked him up because he's always convinced that im going to just start hating him out of nowhere and steal all his shit. and i always have to tell him look im not like that. im not that person. its difficult sometimes honestly. but we all have our battlewounds. so i deal with it. and well i love him so its ok. so i wrote him a letter. because i dont want to feel like hes comparing me to his ex because i dont do that to him. and im not saying i think he is but sometimes i dont think he realizes the things he says make it seem that way. and fuck that ugly fat mexican bitch. she aint me. n shit n shit n shit. either way gah having a boyfriend is hard work sometimes. ooooof. especially when they like to drink until 6 in the morning and wake you up.
ive been kinda pissy about it all day. but i also think im pmsing because i just feel like a bitch.
whatever.

little shorty fire burnin on the dance flo'

2009-06-18T22:11:20Z

so i found that bitch. i was fucking DRRUUUUNK an apparently about to pass out at the bar when someone was like there she is. i woke right up and marched my ass over to her and let her have it. i really cant remember too much of what i said besides prolly some shit talkin like who the fuck do you think you are? an don even LOOK at him an thats MY man and by the end of it she was goin 'he's yours! he's yours!' i said yer goddamn right. then i kept flipping her off from across the bar. hahahaha bitch was scared. wouldnt even get up the rest of the night cuz i kept starin that bitch down. then joey got in a fight? i dont remember. i woke up without panties on an joey was naked an i said did we have sex? then we had sex. dang i love that boy. im done with werk today an gonna head home pretty soon. im gonna sew on my back patch to my vest and sew up some jeans where the ass busted out so i have them back. dunno why the fuck i want jeans in the texas summer but....meh. and also im gonna make joey play littlebig planet with me because there is a part in a level we need to beat. damn i dont feel like taking a shower today. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

doodley doo

2009-06-15T22:15:38Z

twas a good weekend. took some acid. wasnt bad. went to some shows. ate some good food. y'know y'know. joey started his job today. hooray for him! im here at work hangin out until 6pm but i think im gonna leave after this because i was only staying to answer the phone in case this dood called an he already called so i have no need to be here when i could be at my house cleaning an smokin weed an maybe finding somewhere to swim? hmmmm. oh an showering, i could use one o' those. my dad is gonna give me another ac unit. YESSSSSSS. i have to kick out this dood thats been stayin with us because ben expressed concern. an i gotta respect my roommates. tyler sent me a txt saying peaches went to a vorvadoss show. hahahaha. i found the little bitch who wrote in my house on myspace and sent her a threatening message. and the other night joey was drunk and spilled the beans about this girl being all up on his shit. he kept pushing her away from him an goin 'i have a girlfriend' bitch was all tryin to lay her head in his lap an shit. then tryin to put her legs on his lap. OH HEELLLLLLLLLLLLL NO. imma find this bitch an scare the shit outta her. you can fuck with me on about 100 different things an i prolly wont really get angry. BUT YOU MESS WITH MY MUTHAFUCKIN MAN AN BITCH YOU GOIN DOWN. jus sayin. so imma ride my happy ass up to billiard bar on wednesday and find that bitch. an tell her what the fuck is up. which is if i ever see her even lookin at my man again imma beat the shit out of her. i would straight up punch her but i really like bill bar an some dumb whore isnt worth gettin kicked out never to return. so imma just scare her. my dad said the best way to scare someone is to stay really calm. dunno if i can do that but whatevs. well i guess imma hop on da bus. LATER BITCHEZZZZZZZZZZZZ

oh oh its magic

2009-06-10T22:59:50Z

hey livejournal. hows it goin? things for me ...cant really ever complain, im alive. lifes just a series of ups and downs. an right now its a little bit of both. im still on probation, and its still stealing all my money. financial woes are a bummer. almost got evicted from the ole house but i can be persuasive and even tho we sent in 900$ they didnt get it by the day they warned us they were going to post an eviction, and they went ahead and did it. i met up with my landlord and his mother. his mother...had...the most, for lack of better words, AMAZING fupa id seen in many moons. guh-dang. an she had thinning kinda curly big tall hair. geeze. her name's deanna she sat down on the front steps with me. we talked shit through. meh. im still stressed out because i just never seem to have enough money for the important things. i try to get my money right but just keep getting knocked back down. like right now, i owe 431$ for rent an i had to drop 115$ on probation this week. oh well at least my p.o. was proud of me because i finally signed up for community service. psh. that'll be fun. oh well just 24 hours.
lets see, still having shows at the house. they have all gone fairly well. run smooth. minimal cop interruptions. however, at the witch hunt show, a bunch of shit got stolen and broken and fucked up. like, MY FLAT IRONS? 3 of ben's bikes, our cd player got smashed and kids think its fucking cool to graffitti everything in our house. so i decided at the next show i wasnt gonna put with any little fucking asswipes writing in my house. so im walkin into the backyard and i see some new shit. an i KNEW exactly who it was. so im lookin for this little fuckin bitch an i go around front an catch the dumb slut being hoisted up an tagging on the stop sign while a dood is watering his lawn...wtf? anyway im like HEY YOU COME HERE NOW. she hops down an runs over apologizing bein all like 'oh that was a bad move huh? oh im sorry jenny' i tell her 'shut the fuck up an follow me' shes blubberin or some shit an i walk her to the laundry room an say wtf is that? shes all it wasnt me i say bullshit i just saw you writing the same thing. then proceed to tell her to get the fuck out of my house and dont ever come back. fucking dumb slut continues to lie to me. if i wasnt so avid about NO FIGHTING at my home i would have knocked that bitch out. ughhhhhhhhh i was so mad i was shaking. god. wtf is wrong with kids? seriously. i hate everyone most of the time.
however on a lighter note, i have a new boyfriend!!!! omggggg omggggg when i thought i couldnt love ever again i see this dood that i met like 4 years ago at a halloween party at the sanctuary. i remembered him all this time and always wondered whatever became of him. well i started seeing him around here and there and didnt really think much of it right. i even rode down to austin with him an cordell and didnt even say hi to him until like 15 minutes after we had already started drivin down. we get to austin an i take off. so then i see him at a show at my house in the backyard and i go 'hey joey' an he goes 'hey jenny' an i walked up to him an i asked him what he had been up to. he tells me 'skatin an workin' i tell him 'hm, that was a good answer' an walk away. sometime later in the night and im sure many crushers later im sitting on the front steps and hes sitting in front of me. and i tap him on the shoulder and say hey and he goes yea? and i say, (hahahah get ready for it cuz its a doozie) 'hey boy, i been thinkin about you since the day i met you' and he goes '.....really?' i say 'yeah.' he goes 'ok...well i been thinking about this more a minute' and kissed me. then i was like omg we cant makeout in public! hahahahahaha (me ..saying that yea right) somehow we keep scrigglin around and eventually scriggle up to my room. ***** when i woke up an saw him in my bed i didnt get that feeling of oh god what did i do. it was more like dang. dannnnng. and we laid in my bed all day watching movies and drinking beers and smoking cigarettes. all day. until like 1 am. then i gave him my number. he called me a few days later. and we started hanging out. and we just kept hanging out. and i loveeeeee him and hes amazing and one of the sweetest, most considerate, HAWTEST guys ever. his name's joey and he skates and likes video games and w33d. and me. and his mommy. and dogs.
this is him :)

hehehe
well thats about all up to this point. lots left out but fuck yall. if ya know me ya know.

ohps.
my sisters graduation was today. SUPER PROUD OF YA MEL
ohpspsss. send me some of those pix we took!!!!

jennx30 @ 2009-03-27T17:33:00

2009-03-27T22:35:57Z

twat pic dot com

dang i miss those glasses.

dang.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-03-27T22:05:33Z

uhh.....well FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! its been a minute. i dunno what i been doin...n shit..n shit. RANDALL TURNED OUT TO BE A FACKIN ASSHOLE. fuck d00dz for real. forever. fuck em. i aint got no more time to be wastin on them shitz. fuck em. its ok i still have several boyfriends y'know y'know. i went down to austin for about a week all together. shit. wreaked some havoc there ooooof. sxsw was nutzo an fun as hell. i dunno maybe if i updated more often i could elaborate on my life. right now my friend murph is in town and i love himmmmmm and he gonna tattoo my toesies an they gonna say 'DADDYS GIRL' haaaaay i think it gonna be cute. cigarettes cost too much money. probation steals all my money. and well fuck, i hate money.

fuck you

hollllla!

2009-02-06T23:51:25Z

hi hiiii
JAY VEE-OLTMAN is outta jail! i woke up yesterday to his phone call durin which i was having a dream about eating chicken wings? hahah. omg it was soooo great to see him and hug and kiss him!!!!!!! we hung out for a little while then i went to work and didnt really do anything at work except watch horrible vh1 reality shows and i made a pretty sweet valentine decoration- its a heart with a baphomet inside of it. my dad was like are you drawing devil shit? and im like ........... and he's like im gonna rip that up and i said why? he said because its ugly and its bad and i said well you only think that because thats what everyone tells you to think. HAIL SATAN. anyway- zen i went home and when i got there it was a porch party so i went in to wash my face and i hear tyler goin jenny? jenny where are you? so im like yo whats up and hes holding neko and he goes look and i look at her paw and its GUSHING BLOOD an i was like omgggggg so were in the bathroom and its just like dripping and im trying to wash it so jenna is like do you have any flour or powder? ..no. but we have pancake mix? ahhaa so we used that to coagulate the blood then i wrapped it up. and she is fine. she was a total champ about it all. she even kept playing with the other doggies that were there! so we had a pretty fun night. i was just so happy to look over and see jay sittin on my porch again ;) and my randall was there and i heart him.<333333 him an j-low went to a bar and i fell asleep and locked the door and so when rand came back i didnt get his phone call. so i sent him a txt this morning tellin him to come cuddleeeeeeeeee so he did :) now im at work. had to pick up my gramma an worked on a lathe a little bit. now we have to go to sam's because i am doing the go kart food concession stand again. bah. its going to be WINDY as shitttttttt. but at least its moneyyy..yeyeyey...!
oh and im mom of the house. haaaay

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2009-01-29T00:07:17Z

hello livejournal world. man so this part of my tooth fell out awhile ago, and it never bothered me but recently its been causing irritation. mostly on my toungue, which i think is one of the worst places to have an 'injury' of ANY sort. bleehehhhehhhhhhhhhhhhh.
this weekend was AWESSSOMMMEEEEE!!!!! on friday i was surprised by a txt from my gal emi telling me she was coming to dallas!! yayayay! and since when i got home it was still nice out i invited people to come over. THEN IT GOT FREEZING IN LIKE 2 HOURS. ?!?! but they still came over and we hung out in the living room drinkin some beer smokin some w33d. it was real fun until someone asked me about randall and i told them he wasnt there because he had to work real early, then audra's crappy boyfriend aka 'FOULBALL' started saying 'he's gay dude' and i said 'no he's not' and he kept arguing with me. he was even like 'right audra? he's gay' so it built to a point (which didnt take long ill have you know) where i wasnt going to have him saying that anymore. i leaned over and put my hand which was balled into a fist about an inch away from his face and leaned in and said 'if you say another word, ill fucking punch you right in the face' he shut up. then got all huffy and made audra leave. you could tell she was embarrassed. he must have been too because i punked him out in front of about 5 people. which included men. man fuck that! no one talks about my man nor do they talk about one of my best friends in the world. stupid asshole....i patched things up slightly when i gave him a charger that fit his phone. psh whatever.
everyone kept trying to get me an emi to go out but we were like 'NO.' and sat in my room and polished off an 18 pack. it was real fun. the next day we made a delicious feast!!! mmm it was sooooo good. then she left. ;( but then randall called me! and then my sister called me and said she was at amsterdam bar and randall had told me he was going there so my sister told me to tell him that kyle maclachlan was there. so i did. and he believed me and so were almost there and he says something about it and i go 'oh it was just a joke' and he was like whaaaaaaaaat?!?! you fucking biiitch!! and iw as like HEY ! geeze randall you just called me a bitch! and he's like ..sorry..and i told him it was my sisters idea and she put me up to it. hahahaha either way it was fun at the bar and randall said some real sweet things to me <3
the next day dustin came over to FINALLY get his car from the back of my driveway with his dad. but tylers truck was in the way and he was still in austin. so we went and ate some burgers and dustins dad left and me and dustin went and bought a box of wine. hahaha!!! then randall came over and we all hung out then he was like lets go to hooters! so we went to hooters. in addison? and our waitress was this girl named 'TIARA' and she was SOOO fucked up. like pillllllllzzzzzzzzz you could tell. ehhh....me and dustin were DRUNK and we all came back to my house drank one beer i tried to roll a blunt and then passed out. i woke up and was like ??? who fell asleep first? dustin said it was me then he fell asleep on the couch with a beer in his hand and spilled it all over himself and apparently randall was kissing me while i was asleep? hahahaha oh it was just silliness.
dustin is still here because the weather got bad then last night his car wouldnt start. i started making a mixtape for emi and FINISHED the first side and something happened and none of it recorded!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so mad!!!!!!! and randall made more spoke cards and gave me some. the weather was real bad and his mom called him and right at that moment rob zombie started blaring. i was like EEP! hahahahaha
worked today had to use the DISGUSTING OILY gun drill machine. GOD i hate that machine.
its cold. and i have to pay stupid billz. ughhhhhh. haaaaaaaate!!!!!!!1

oh yeah- ben is moving back in and i got a tattoo for dune!
it looks like this roughly O--O--O <--but the lines go through the outside circles but not all the way out of them. its badassssssss i showed randall and he jumped off a tree that doesnt make sense but i cant explain.......ah fuck it

the first thing i see is TITTIES!

2009-01-16T23:43:18Z

herro! i did my drug evaluation yesterday and it went so very well! i used every ounce of my charisma then some reserves to lie to the kind man with sparkly blue eyes and little round wire frame glasses. ehhh...i mean i didnt really lie that much. just that ive never done drugs and i only drink on the weekends :/ whatever! that shit is bullshit. and it cost 35$. pfffff. but the man was nice... i went with alex coker who was like 'MAN MY LADY WAS A BIIIITCH' and when they asked the question: 'so why do you drink?' we said the same answer: 'because i like the taste of beer?' hahaha shit. i mean i worded it differently.
twatever. so i have to do the concession stand thing tomorrow, and it seems like every time i have to do it i feel sick? like last time was a weird stomach thing, this time my throat feels all funny?!?!!? gaaaaaah. not fair. FUCK YOU COLD WEATHER. I BLAME THEEEEEEEEEEE. ugh. go away and stay away! no one likes you in texas except fucking freaks. im moving to a tropical island someday and i shall never return to any time of WINTER WEATHER AGAIN. mark my words.
i had a very vivid dream last night, most of which i cannot remember except chloe sevigny was in it and she was selling really cute shoes at this boutique....but all this other shit was going on. the last part i remember my exbf chase was causing drama at this house next to this other house i was hangin out at with amy. well the guy who lived in the house next door was home and so i went over to explain what had happened (which i cannot remember) and the guy was like 'yeah they were hatin on you' and i said something and then i said bye to everyone and walked past chase and he grabbed my arm and goes 'baby..' and i wasl ike DONT TOUCH ME and then he did something and i slammed him against a wall and put my hand up to his throat and i said 'dont you ever fucking touch me again, and im not your baby. i never was' and he made some face and i was like 'NEVER. NEVER EVER EVER NEVER EVER!' and left.

geeeze.
i gotta go bye!

oooooh boy because you'll always be mah baybeee

2009-01-15T00:34:29Z

my throat has felt weird all day. not bad, just WEIRD? ehhhhhhh. what to say what to say...
MEH- i got nothin? except this fucking scarey/weirdo dream i had this morning from what i remember:

this dood who was going to rape me? i think but was also like my moms boyfriend some shit was goin on and we were in this weird old warehouse type of apartment building place. neko was there and one of the rooms was a big field with fence all around it and neko got out and was running around while i was trying to get away from this guy who was apparently going to fuck me and when i found neko her legs had been chewed off well one of them and she was all bloody and fucked up so i was freaking out and i took her into this bathroom with writing all over the walls and was trying to fix her and that man was there but i wasnt afraid of him anymore then this lady who i GUESS was my mom even tho she looked like a crackhead was there too. the next part i remember was going over to my friend christina's place. in the same type of warehouse i got to her door and went inside and inside her place was a huge swimming pool. so i jumped in and there were all these toys in the pool an i was splashin around when all of a sudden this scarey ass huge bug starts like divebombing me and while its divebombing me i can focus in on its face which was turning into like a demonic looking fuckin thing and so i was scrambling to get out of the pool while its still zooming toward me and im running and i get to this part in her apt where there were dressing rooms and this bug turned into a fairy? so this fairy starts talkin to us and complaining about some shit while im looking at all these little gifts on the floor. one was a pair of onesy pajamas and there was also some really cute sweater vests that i remember wanting to steal. another part in the dream i just remembered was going to this pool party with all these 'glamourous' people but really they just had a lot of jewelry on and really stupid looking glasses and the pool was set up so there were like tables in it and all these girls were playing with polly pockets?

WHAT IN THE HELL. weirdo.
me and randall spent all day saturday making bike polo mallets. then anthony finally returned my bike so now i wanna try to play. but by the time i get home its dark, its the same for him. hrmph.
oh yeah- im going to be moving out sometime soon this year. i must live a more civilized WARM lifestyle. oh and not with boyz. thats all.

SUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jennx30 @ 2009-01-08T18:39:00

2009-01-09T00:43:22Z

hey livejournal!!! whats up dawg
man the weather is so beautiful it makes me happpppppppppy to be alive! in this wonderful year of 2009. ive realized odd years are WAY better than even years. ie: 2006- worst year of my life to date. 2007- kicked ASS! 2008- coulda been better. BUT 2009! HAAAAAAy
got big ideas big goals doin it big
im really really happy
i have wonderful amazing friends and and and anddddd iloveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerandall.
loveeeeeee but. i ..............everyone keeps telling me to tell him MORE OF HOW I FEEL but i dont know if i can or even want to? scared????????/ dunno. ehh...siiiiigh. why should i have to? why does everyone tell me its what i should do when im happy with whatever it is.? i mean what more is there to say?
whatever.
i gotta go bye!

remember nothing ever goes according to plan

2008-12-19T00:46:35Z

pff whatevs. uhhhhhhh SOO last night i get home and ima puttin on some makeyup and randall calls me and says some homies are gonna come over and we gonna drank so i say sho' and so's they do. and were kickin it on the porch right, and there was this car parked in front of the house and we see this dood get in and drive off and we heckled him a bit ok. so then the same car comes back and parks in the same spot. so this time im like im gonna mess with him. so its this dood and were like HEY COME HERE and start messin with him and im tryin to hustle some money outta him and the doods drunk and funny and were like so what are you going to give us? and hes like...well i can play the saxophone? and he sees the drums in our house so tyler goes in and starts playin the drums and dood comes in with his sax and starts fuckin PLAYIN THE SAXOPHONE! like, REALLY GOOD! it was hilarious and awesome. we gave him a beer, actually he EARNED that beer. man it was great. spent the rest of the night chillin.
worked today. readin about aliens. audra contacted me. perhaps we shall hang in the near future. my back hurtsssssssss and OMG THANK THE LORD ITS NOT FREEZZZZING TODAY!

so i guess i look like a hooker

2008-12-12T23:18:48Z

IVE had this crappy crick in my neck allllllllll weeeeeeeeeeeek GO AWAAAAAAAY BE GONE PLZZZ
last night alex coker picked me up to have a beer with him at libertine. amy gee was there with her boo michael armstrong and this other guy andy. then the andy guy was like omg i have the biggest crush on you an im like whaaaa??????? an he starts telling me about all the times he's seen me and stuff like that and i thought it was so funny. he said that he even asked people about me and i was like oh shit what did you hear? he just said that everyone likes me. haha WHEWWWW. he seems real nice and smiley. i wonder what his intentions are...whatevs.
OMG i almost forgot TODAY
i got off the bus an i start walkin to my dads shop to go to work. im reading my book as i walk (which i often do) im dressed in work attire which is NOT IN ANY WAY ATTRACTIVE and all these cars are honking at me and im like seriously? c'monnnnnnn so anyway- i keep walkin not payin attention when this truck drives by me and honks im like psh...keep walkin as i turn down the street toward my fathers shop the same truck drives by me again. this time he gives me the 'whats up heads up' and i do it back to him but not with a pleasant look on my face more of like what the FUCK do you want? so i turn down the next street where my dads shop is at the dead end and that SAME MOTHERFUCKING truck drives by me this time he pulls up to me and i go 'WHAT DO YOU WANT?!' and he says ' where are you going? ' i said TO MY WORK and point to the shop he goes oh...and i go CREEP!
WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT HE THOUGHT I WAS A DAMNED HOOKER?!?!?!?!?!?!FJKA;JKAFJ;KLj
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh